There are two sins of man that are bred in the bone, and that continually come out in the flesh. One is self-dependence and the other is self-exaltation. It is very hard, even for the best of men, to keep themselves from the first error. The holiest of Christians, and those who understand best the gospel of Christ, find in themselves a constant inclination to look to the power of the creature, instead of looking to the power of God and the power of God alone.

So begins Spurgeon's sermon on free grace. He is so right. The default of the human heart is so clearly (in my experience!) self-salvation. I am constantly delighted in the grace of God and yet find too that I am thinking and acting and speaking in ways that show I want to rely on me and haven't grasped grace as I should. It's ridiculous. It is so persistent. It's grotesque and horrendous.

Remind me of grace...please!

CH goes on:

Somehow the human mind clings to human merit; it always will hold to it, and when you take away everything upon which you think it could rely, in less than a moment it fashions some other ground for confidence out of itself. Human nature with regard to its own merit, is like the spider, it bears its support in its own bowels, and it seems as if it would keep spinning on to all eternity. You may brush down one web, but it soon forms another, you may take the thread from one place, and you will find it clinging to your finger, and when you seek to brush it down with one hand you find it clinging to the other. It is hard to get rid of; it is ever ready to spin its web and bind itself to some false ground of trust.